Confessions and Realisations

Long story time but please read! :3

My mind went black at her words. What did she just say? Well I know what she said but what in the world did she mean by it? "Uhm you don't have to answer right now, I know this is kind of sudden for you", the light coloured filly stammered with a bright red face. "It's just that I've liked you for so long without telling you..", she murmered quietly, getting more nervous as I stayed silent. "So long? Why didn't you tell me earlier?", I asked kind of as a way to stray from the actual topic. "Well it is kind of hard to get you alone", she giggled, both of us knowing very well who she was talking about. Now it was my turn to blush, it was true I never strayed from my brother's side. Even now I'd rather be with Kai than to be having this conversation. Other colts had come to us lately bragging about getting girlfriends and how happy they were. I on the other hand wasn't happy at all with this. It's not that she isn't pretty, quite the contrary she's probably the prettiest filly of the whole herd, also very kind and a lot of fun to be around but that's it. I've never thought about her being my girlfriend. In fact I've never thought about girlfriends at all, I was actually rather dissappointed when one of the colts got a girlfriend. "Austin?", her voice interrupted my thoughts. Oh crap I totally zoned out just now. "Uhm I'm sorry. I don't think I feel the same way about you", I told her softly trying to be gentle. I didn't want to hurt her feelings but I truly didn't like her the way she liked me. I could see her face fall as she tried to hide her dissapointment. "Oh okay, that's alright", she smiled bravely even though her eyes were getting watery. "We're still okay right?", I asked her unsurely, I didn't want to lose her as a friend. She laughed quietly, "No we're okay." I smiled at her and she smiled back sadly. She nodded at me and then turned around slowly. "Is there someone else you like?", she asked me then turned her head back over her shoulder. My eyes widened as I realised I immediately saw Kai's face in my mind at her question. That surely couldn't be right. "No I don't think so", I answered not even sure of my own words. She smiled and walked away, I guess she couldn't keep up the pretty face forever. I must have hurt her. Then my mind took me back to her question and my heart started to thump loudly. Why did I think of Kai? He's my brother! I tried to push the though out of my mind but all it did was convince me more of what I was so afraid of. The reason why I was always by Kai's side. The reason why I actually only really enjoyed his company instead of the other colts. The reason that when he came just a little too close to me my heart would skip a beat. I was in love with my own twin brother I realised to my own disbelief.

Oh my God. Oh my God! I couldn't be in love with Kai! He was a guy, my brother, my TWIN brother even! My breathing quickened and my heart was most probably training for the olympics seeing the rate it was beating. This couldn't be happening. How would I even face him now? I felt so incredibly guilty towards him. What would he think of me if he knew the way I felt about him?! "Oi austin, what's taking you so long?", my brother's oh so familiar voice asked me. I panicked letting out a high pitched squeek and stumbling back like an idiot. Why was he here now?! "Hey calm down it's just me flinchie", he grinned and took a step towards me. That was not right, it was not just him, it was him and that was exactly the problem right now. "Wow what in the world did she say to you?", he looked at me with slight worry now. "Nothing!", I replied loudly and blushing like crazy, man I really couldn't keep my act together after realising I liked him. "That seems highly unlikely seeing the way you are acting", Kai replied looking at me sternly for an answer. "It's nothing", I squeeked slightly calmer now but not convincing at all. "Austin, what is it that you can't tell even me?", he stared at me in disbelief, I normally told him everything. But this wasn't something I could tell him. Our whole relationship would be destroyed. "Austin", he pressed slightly offended that I wasn't responding. "I can't tell you, you would hate me", I stammered shaking on my legs. I just wanted to leave already but Kai just wouldn't let it go. "Come on now as if I could ever hate you. Tell me", he replied still firmly waiting for an answer. "You would, now leave it!", I said loudly. "No I wouldn't, tell me!", he replied getting angry now. "NO, leave it alone I don't have to tell you everything!", I now yelled, he was getting angry I was getting desperate. "We always tell each other everything, what could possibly be so bad that you couldn't tell me!", he demanded stepping very close to me now. "I'm in love with you!", I snapped. Oh God! I said it! My eyes widened in panic so did Kai's. Everything was over now. I let my head hang low and stared hard at the grass below me preparing for whatever words of disgust Kai would have for me. It stayed silent though. After a few moments I dared to peek up at him and saw him in some sort of daze. "You're in love with me?", he repeated in a questioning manner. It was very tempting to tell him no and play it off as a joke but there was no way he would buy that. So instead I just nodded looking at him with a painful expression. "Really?", he asked disbelief written all across his face. "Why would I lie about that!", I replied annoyed, how many times would he want me to say something so wrong?! Then he did something so unreal I was incredibly offended. He started to laugh. "You think this is funny?", I growled angrily at him. "No", he replied and took yet another step closer to me, "I think it's amazing." Before I could good and well realise what he meant by that he'd already pushed me on the ground and stood hovering above me. "What are you..!", I started to say but I was cut off as he licked my muzzle. I was absolutely flabbergasted. What in the world was he doing to me? "I'm in love with you too", he told me with a grin and and his face way too close to mine. My heart almost couldn't take it and squeezed painfully in my chest. This couldn't be true right? "In fact I've been in love with you for quite a while", he added and pressed his forehead against mine. Surely I must be dreaming.


Okay so yeah, you know how in their reference sheet it says they have been attracted to each other since they were young? I wasn't lying. Yep I went there. My precious gay twins are in love with each other. Needless to say they're both in for a lot of heartache but at this age they're still unaware of just how messed up their situation is. They're supposed to be around 13 to 14 years old here in human years. I had my first boyfriend when I was just 13 and I'm not saying that was true love (cause it really wasn't xD) but I was very much in love. So I chose this age for them to figure it out they are gay and in love with each other because for most people the age you start liking in that other way ;D

So yeah I hope you guys won't be too weirded out with my choice of storyline for them. I personally adore it. Probably because I enjoy torturing my characters And also because I simply just really like it for them :3

I could have drawn a seperate picture for the second part of the story but I wanted you guys to know it know. though I might draw that last scene anyway cause it would be adorable

I hope that in spite of the morally wrongness of the story you will still enjoy it!

Austin, filly & art: Me *paardjee
Pose reference Austin: Christiane Slawik.
Pose reference filly: [link] by ~okbrightstar-stock